Letter To The Past
Dear Amanda,
Hi, it’s me. You may be wondering who am I but just to tell you that I’m Zheng Jie, the plump boy who sat beside you in class when you’re primary 4.
7 years from now, we knew each other for just a year only and yet I have never talked to you before; maybe I’m too shy. Honest speaking, it is quite easy to spot whether I have a crush on someone, I will never speak to that person nor I will look at her.
Remember the time when you have just transferred to our school, our class. When I saw you at the first sight, I think that you’re the one that could make my heartbeats goes fast. Hence I never look at you for the second time again.
Unluckily, god just love to prank on me. One day, the teacher just got this idea that the class sitting arrangement should be changed. So, you were called to sit beside me, on my right side. From that day onwards, I have never turn to my right side, I have never called your name, or perhaps 1 time when someone told me to pass you the liquid paper and my face turned red. There is lot of times when my friends tried to tease me, asking me whether I got talk to you, with you sitting beside me. Same goes, my face turned red again, and it was quite often.
You must be thinking what the heck is that boy sitting beside you, not talking, not looking at you for the whole year, hate you or what? Hence, sorry if you got the wrong idea, not that I don’t like you, I just don’t know how to face you. “We’re so near yet so far”, I think this statement is true.
I spotted you on the same bus, I saw you alighting at this station so I assumed that you live somewhere there. I got this crazy idea that when I grew up, I will take a loudspeaker and shout for your name on every floors of those HDB flats, just to find you. During that time, that was my greatest wish of all.
However, 1 year passed, we spitted classes. I thought that I will cry for a few nights, but I did not.
Sometimes, I did saw you around the school, but that feeling is not as strong as in primary 4. I heard that you were doing very well and became a school counselor, congrats.
After I graduated from primary school, I never thought of seeing you again. Until recently, I saw you in lecture room , the one where we were screening a movie. You’re in mass comm, sitting the row in front of me, Yo!. However, I think that you have already forgotten me, because I have changed too much, so I didn’t bring myself forward to talk to you. But you are still the same, still the Amanda I know in year 2000.
Ya, hope that you are doing well in mass comm. I don’t know how to describe my feeling toward you currently. Maybe I’m just used to not talking to you. Feelings never store with memories, so don’t think too much and good luck for your studies.
Lastly, don’t worry; I won’t go to your flat shouting for you. =P
Best regards,
Zheng Jie
